it is Anything yet?
While did not the attack of absurd desires pass for you?
– I would not object against time.
– No.
No time. On such conditions a transaction is torn right now.
He breathed depressed. it is an Only year or two?
I shocked a head, my lips compressed stubbornly. – Pass to the following.
– That is all. Unless, you will want to talk about machines.
Seeing my grimace, he smiled widely, after took my hand and began to play with my fingers.
– I did not present
that except for a desire to grow into a monster, you want something yet. I am very curious. – his voice was low and soft. Not know, I him so well, would not even notice easy negligence in tone.
I did a pause, looking
on his hands over it. Still not knowing from what to begin. Feeling his look on itself, I was afraid to give a glance upwards. A person blazed up from the wave of blood.
His cool fingers stroked my cheek. – do you blush? – he asked surprised. I continued to look downward. – Please. Bella, uncertainty scotches me.
I got a bite lip.
it is Bella. – Now reproach in his tone, reminded me, as he is heavy, when I hold the ideas at itself.
–
Well, I a bit experience. about that will be after, – I was acknowledged, finally, giving a glance on him.
I felt, as his body was strained, but his voice was pampered and velvety. – what do you experience From?
–
Seems, all of you ubezhdenny, that after a change, my unique
interest will be to put to death all in town, – I was acknowledged, and he gave a start from words which I picked up. – And I am afraid that will be so taken in ideas about murders, that will not be anymore by itself. and, that I will not be. I will not want you the same as now.
it is
Bella, this state does not last always, – he assured me.
He did not understand me.
it is Edvard, –
I said, nervous, examining a freckle for itself on a wrist. – there Is something, that I would like to do, before to change.
He expected that I would continue. I did not become. My person all burned.
– All, that want, – he heartened me, losing one's the head and being lost in conjectures.
– does Promise? – I
whispered, knowing that my attempt to take at his the word him will malfunction, but not able to withstand from such temptation.
– Yes, – he said. I gave a glance upwards, what to see his serious and rassteryanyy look.
– Say me – that you want, and you can get it.
I can not trust, as far
as abashedly and po-idiotski I felt. I was so innocent – that, certainly, and was the center of discussion. I did not have not the least considering about that, how to be tempting. I had simply pokrasnet' and decide to put baldly.
– You, – I whispered almost disconnectedly.
it is I your, – he smiled, trying to catch my look, when I turned one's away again.
I deeply breathed and moved forward, so to get up on knees on a bed. Then I twined about hands his neck and kissed him.
He answered me will
kiss, amazedly, but with a desire. His lips were tender, and can say that his ideas were far – trying to find out that was crafty for me. I decided, he needs a hint.
My hands a bit
trembled, when I took away them from his neck. My fingers went down downward, to the collar of his shirt. Trembling mixed, while I hurriedly tried to unzip him the buttons, before he stopped me.
His lips hardened, and I almost heard a click in his head, when he laid down all of my ideas and actions together.
He together pushed away me aside, his person was expressed by strong disapproval.
– Be otvetstvenney, Bella.
– You
promised – all, that will want, – I reminded to him without a hope.
– We do not discuss it. – he looked at me, while fastened two overhead buttons, which I had time to unzip.
My teeth compressed.
– And I talk, discuss, – I growled. Heaved up hands to the blouse and unzipped the first button.
He grasped my wrists and pinned hands on guy-sutures.
– I said – no, – he pronounced passionless.
We glowered on each other.
– You wanted to know, – I noticed.
– I thought, it would be something real.
– Znachit, you can sue
for any foolishness and nonsense, what you want – for example, about
marriage – but I am not permissible even to discuss, that I.
While I brawled, he had laid down my hands together, retaining one to it, and closed other hand me a mouth.
– No. – he said with a stone person.
I breathed deeply, to calm down. And, when anger began to fall, I felt something other.
A minute was
required me, what to consider, why I again look downward and a paint went back to a person – why I felt weight in a stomach, why eyes became moist, why I suddenly wanted to hurry from a room.
A refuse passed through me, involuntarily and strongly.
I knew, it is unreasonable. In past attempts he explained clear, that my safety the unique stopping him factor. However, I never before felt such hurt. I lowered on a gold blanket, suitable in color to his eyes and tried to drive away a reflex reaction, telling me, that I was unnecessary and unwelcome.
Edvard breathed. His
hand moved from my mouth under a chin, he raised my person upwards, while I did not have to look at him.
– That now?
– Nothing, – I mumbled.
Long time he
examined my person attentively, while I unsuccessfully tried to avoid his look. He bent an eyebrow, and suddenly his expression grew into a fright.
–
did I scotch your senses? – he asked, shocked.
– No, – I uttered a lie.
So quickly,
whatever I even noticed, as it happened, I had been in his hands, my person reposed at his shoulder, supported from other side a his hand raceme, while by a pollex he sedative petted me on a cheek.
– You know why I had to say it is not, – he whispered. – you know that I want you also.
– does Want? – I whispered with a doubt.
– Certainly, want, you
are a foolish, beautiful, ultrasensitive girl. – he began to the laugh, and then his voice became weak. – Whoever does not want you? Such sense, that behind me turn from competitors, fighting for a place, only and waitings, when I will make an error and will give them a chance. you are too desirable.
– And who now foolish? – I doubted, whether it is possible awkwardness, bashfulness, and to add foolishness to the word «desirable» in somebody's notebook.
– to send petition me,
to compel you to trust? To say you, whose names will be in the overhead lines of list? Some from them you know, but some can surprise you.
I
began to the wave a head at his breast, building a grimace. – you simply try to distract me. Let us go back to a theme.
He breathed.
– Say me, if I
understood something not so. – I tried to talk indifferently. – Your requirements are marriage, – I was not able to pronounce a word without a grimace is payment of my studies, more than time, and you not against, if my machine will move a bit quick. – I lifted vverkh an eyebrow. – am I right? It is a decent list.
– Only first is a requirement. – seemed, he hardly stuck to quietly. – All of other – simply request.
–
And my one unique little requirement it –
– Requirement? – he interrupted me, again becoming serious.
– Yes, requirement.
His eyes narrowed.
– For me marriage, difficult decision. I will disagree, while will not get something in exchange.
He was
bent, to whisper me in an ear. – No, – he proshelestel. – it is not possible Now. Later, when you will be less fragile. Potrepi, Bella.
I tried to save
voice hard and reasonable. – But herein and problem. It will not be the same, when I to the figure of less fragile. I will not be former! I do not know, who I will become by sweat.
– You still will be Bella, – he promised.
I frowned. – If will I
call so far, that will want to put to death Charley – and at possibility, will have a drink blood of Dzheykoba or Anzhely– as it can be a true?
it
is passes. And I doubt that you will want to have a drink sobachey blood. – he pretending to shuddered from this idea. – In spite of the fact that you will become newly converted, you will have taste rather better.
I
skipped by, his attempt to bewilder me. – But will it always be most desirable for me, in fact so? – I asked. it is Blood, blood, and yet more blood!
–
Circumstance that you living yet, proves that it is a not true, – he noticed.
– After
eighty years, – I reminded to him. – I mean, physically. Reason, I know, there will be my. and over time I will be able to control itself. But, cleanly physically – I always will test thirst and more nothing other.
He
did not answer.
– So that, I all the same will be other, – not hearing reverse, I concluded. – Because right now, physically, most I want you. More than ride, water or air. Mentally, I have desires more refined perceptible. But physically.
I turned, what to kiss his palm.
He breathed deeply. I was surprised, that this sound meant indecision and vibrations.
it
is Bella, I can put to death you, – he whispered.
– I do not think that you will do it.
Edvard screwed up eyes.
He dropped a hand from my person and dragged as far as to something behind itself, so quickly, that I did not have time to see that it. A deaf sound sounded, a bed twitched under us.
Something the dark was
in his hand; he heaved up him upwards, enabling me to consider. This was a metallic flower, one of roses of decorating the forged supports and baldachin above a bed. His hand closed up on the stake of second, fingers compressed gently, and then he exposed a fist.
Speaking not a
word, he showed me the bulged-in, uneven piece of black threw. On him the internal side of his palm was printed, as on the piece of plasticine, constrained in the kulak of child. The half of second and piece passed yet scattered black sand on his palm.
I looked not
unstucking. it is Talk not about it. I know already, as far as you are strong. you do not need for the sake of it to break furniture.
– That do you mean
then? – he asked darkly, giving up the handful of ferrous sand in the corner of room; he hitted a wall with a sound, look like a rain.
His eyes stuck in my person, when I tried to explain.
– Obviously, that you
can physically cause me harm, if will want. But, you do not want to cause me harm. so strongly, that does not think that you some time will do me very.
He
negatively began to the shake a head before I finished to talk.
it is Bella, it can malfunction.
– Can, – I smiled. – For you no more experience is on that business which we talk about, what for me.
– Exactly. Do you think, I can expose to you such risk?
I looked a long minute him in eyes. There was neither a sign on a compromise nor hint on oscillation.
–
Please, – finally I whispered without a hope. – That is all, what I want. Please. – Won, I closed eyes, expecting short and final – no.
But he answered not immediately. I lingered with distrust, stunned hearing that he again began to breathe unevenly.
I opened eyes, his person was twisted a flour.
– Please? – I whispered
again, the my heart beating gathered speed. My words took off
quickly, I had hurried to take advantage of advantage of sudden
indecision in his eyes. – you are not necessary to give me some guarantees. If nothing will go out, well what. So to that and to be. Simply let us make an attempt. we will make an attempt only. And I will give you everything, that will want. – I promised hastily. – I will go out for you marry. I will allow you to pay Dartmut, and I will not complain, that it will be necessary to bribe for my receipt there. you even can purchase me a rapid machine, if from it you will become happier! Only.. Please.
His icy hands compressed round me, and his lips were near my ear; his cold breathing compelled me to tremble.
it is unbearable. So
much a lot of all, that I want you to give – and what you decided to demand. Do you though understand as far as very me to refuse you, when do you plead with me so?
– Then not refuse, – I offered, hardly breathing.
He did not answer.
– Please, – I made an effort again.
it is
Bella. – he slowly rocked a head, but it was not look like a refuse, because his person, his lips moved downward and upwards, kissing my throat. It was anymore look like a surrender. My heart, and so madly beaten, began to the beat yet more furious.
Again, I took advantage
of the advantage. While he, delayed hesitatingly, turned to me, I quickly developed in his hands, and kissed him. He obkhvatili my person, and I thought, that would push away me again.
I wronged
His mouth already was not tender;
nothing new was felt, some contradiction and rashness afoot of his lips. I closed hands round his neck, snuggled up it, suddenly razgoryachennoy, by a skin to him, and to my surprise, discovered that his body had become yet more cold, than usually. I trembled, but not from a cold.
He did not stop to kiss
me. I was the unique, who needs was breathing space and breath of air. Even then, his lips did not jump back from my skin, they only moved to my throat. Delight of victory was extraordinary high; he compelled me to feel the force. I was brave. My hands did not tremble; now, I easily managed with the buttons on his shirt, and my fingers touched the ideal surface of his icy breast. He was too beautiful. What word did he utillize just? Unbearably – that is it was. His beauty was simply unbearable.
I again pulled at his
mouth to the lips, and seemed, he wished it similarly, as well as I. One his hand obkhvatyvala my person still, by other hand he firmly twined about my waist, attracting closer to itself. From it it was a bit hardness me to be dragged as far as to fastening of the woman's jacket, but – there is nothing impossible.
Cold ferrous shackles
closed up round my zapyastiy, and fished out my hands above a head, suddenly appeared, that I already lie on a pillow.
His lips now were near
my ear: it is Bella, – he whispered, his voice was warm and velvet. – do you can, please, to leave off to undress?
– do you want to do it? – I asked abashedly.
– not today, – he answered softly. His lips now slowly walked on my cheek and chin, he no longer hurried.
it is Edvard, not. – I beginnings it was to argue.
– I do not talk – no, – he assured me. – I simply talk – not today.
I thought about it, while my breathing was slowed.
– Name me khotya-by one reason, what today's night, worse than other. – my breathing still was uneven, and disappointment in my voice was not so obviously notedly.
– I borned
not yesterday. – he smiled to me in an ear. – From us two, how do you think, who no longer wishes to give other what that wants? Did you simply promise to make a match for me, before to change, but if I will be added you today, what guarantees I will get, that you will not begin to the run tomorrow morning to Karlaylu? I – clear business – with less reluctance would give you that is wanted by you. But however. you are first will carry out a promise.
I loudly and breathed out angrily. – At first must I go out for you marry? – I asked with amazement.
His
hands twined round me, and he began very provocatively me to kiss. Too convincingly is was a compulsion, violence. I made an effort save the head of clear. and surrendered quickly and unreservedly.
– Dumayu, it is a
very bad idea, – managed to breathe out I, when he allowed me to breathe.
– not surprised, that you think so. – he grinned complacently. – easily to trace your ideas.
–
As did it happen? – I muttered. – I had a hope, that I will get desired today – and now, instead, so unexpectedly.
– Betrothed, – he finished for me.
– Ugh! Please, not pronounce it aloud.
– going you to take
away the word back? – he asked, and deviated back trying to understand that is created in my head. He amused oneself obviously. It was merrily him.
I looked at him, trying not to pay a regard to that, how my heart reacts on his smile.
– Because? – he insisted.
– Uu! – I moaned. – No. I not going to renounce. Are you happy now?
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